Self-talking

Looking at the mirror, you found yourself with an unlined face except for a few squint lines under your eyes. You are neither young, nor old enough to drop all your dreams about life. The days stretch out, the future remains uncertain. You can't just ride the current where it would take you because you know you can not live with yourself without even a try. Today, it is your birthday. Happy birthday, my dear. At this special moment there are a few things I’d like to talk to you.



Obsession: Obsessions are funny things; unhealthy ones could turn your life into a hell, but some obsessions could lift you to higher planes of life, make you shine with a bright light, and complete you in a wonderful way. Therefore, curb your spending, curb your appetite, and curb your hours of looming over the computer. But feed your obsessions of writing and reading, let them burn your skin with a hunger desire. And never, never let frustrations and fear of failure get in your way.



Courage: You are a field mouse who is comfortable only with safety. Your life is as serene as a quiet pool on a lazy summer day. At the most of time you are satisfied, except for the restlessness that would materialize out of nowhere. Yes, restlessness is exact the word. It always jumps at you at the most unexpected moment. You have conducted your entire life in only one way: safety. You feel comfortable staying within certain boundaries, but you can always sense a little yearning for adventure lurking beneath the surface. Playing safe perhaps would help you fashion a little safe cocoon of your own, but somehow it also makes you existing in a sort of half-life. Nothing ventured, nothing gained. Sometimes you have to take certain risks.



Cherish: You are blessed with having someone to love, and being loved in return. Your husband sometimes drives you crazy, but he is still your rock, always there when you need him. Yesterday, he gave you a FION bag as your birthday present. He knew you would never spend money on a luxury, so he took so many troubles---driving to the shopping mall, consulting the shop assistant, and selecting the item he thought you would like. It cost him a fortune to purchase this bag, but now you have a valuable souvenir to treasure, not only because it is expensive, but more important, because of the feeling, the shining and bring memory attached behind. This morning, your little son song Happy Birthday To You over the phone, broken, out-of-key, but it was still the best song you ever heard. And you got your parents, who always trying to smother you with their parental love. Cherish what you've got, and never take anything for granted.



Relax: For the years, you deliberate keep a barrier between yourself and everyone else. Outside of your intimate little circle, you seldom relax your guard. You never loose the remoteness that lay over your expressions when you are around with people, and you never let anyone other than your family get close enough to find the inner person you really are. You might be born with a reserved nature, but you should not let your personality color your life more than it already did. Sometimes, just Relax.



My dear, happy birthday and take care!